aiz... just realize
that we meet so often after we went to penang in dec08
and we seldom/ hardly find the time to meet after we went to penang in dec 09
what a sad thing
is kind of wasted... but at least happen =)
so still ok la~~~ hehehe
lurve u all so much.

but hey think back.
we went out so much/often till i can imagine loh
like it.
kiss u all =)

wow tis blog i found is really speaking what i wanted to say yet not said. =)

credited to Jacq.

What is 'meaning in life' to u?
Life is something we all have in common no matter who we are, where we are, how rich, how poor, what we do for a living, race, religion, culture... etc. What sets us apart is how we chose to live it (if we have the priviledge to choose), or rather how life itself unfolds in the palm of our hands...

Some live their whole lives trying to find a meaning but never can find.
You work hard, plan for the future, find stability. That is very very important. Survival. As you grow older, you find that u are bearing more responsibilities which comes with family, children, workplace and everything that circulates around your life. Everything demands more of u. U can't run away from that. No one can run away from responsibilities.

Everyone in a way, is searching for a meaning in life.
The purpose.
The reason we go about doing what we do everyday.... The hours stuck in the STUPID STUPID STUPID traffic, working your ass off, studying for exams squeezing every ounce of 'smart-ness' left in your brain so that u can ace a test.... why do we do all these stuff??
A good answer would be.... "I want to be successful." or "Life is short and I want to make the best of it."

It is very good to be ambitious and wanting to improve yourself and live a successful life but dont mistaken being successful or contented with knowledge and finances to 'having a meaningful life'.

>> hmm i was still trying to figure out what i wan in life.

I've been a very confused person(hehe :P) when it comes to choosing a path in life that I would eventually take. You cannot keep going one way and look the other, "oh! that way looks better..." and turn around and try the other. That way, u'll never get anywhere. Always stuck at the crossroads. Back at the beginning. I'm still working on it btw... ;)

What is meaning in life to u?


Sometimes we just think too much.
Sometimes we care too much what others think about what we do.
Just put that all aside and listen to what that person inside you is saying.
That little voice we push aside. Insensible. Ridiculous. That voice that believes in love and in dreams, and that sparks ideas to do crazy things!
That voice that gives us heaps and mountains of strength when we actually decide to listen to it.
The world may be so deceiving it's so hard to tell the truth from lies.
Take some time to listen to ur heart.
Just listen. Mix it with some sense, integrity and lots of care and compassion. There u have it!

Because...... the most constant thing in life is... CHANGE.

You need to open your mind and see the greater possibilities that the world has to offer. It's not easy to be like a nomad when it comes to your own mind but you just wouldn't know the treasures that are in store for you on the other side if you don't step out. We always tend to stick to what we know and believe in because it is in that we find comfort and trust. Don't let your fear of the unknown tie you down and keep you from soaring. It's ok to give it a shot and get yourself hurt rather than spend your life wondering how it would have felt.
Be spontaneous.
you're young and you still can.
This is what life is about.

But be strong and be ready to pick yourself up when you fall. Because you will.
Mourn for a while but don't fuss, and keep moving forward.

what we go through might be totally different but it is all similar in a way.
sometimes we just need a little encouragement.


>> is all what i have been thinking all this while,what is the meaning of life?
i was still wandering. Hope i can find out soon the answer. ;)
oh ya... read book in the while, like mitch albom- another one more day. u noe how precious, how fragile is life. yet sometimes is hard to show the love u have for dem. for the people besides u. anyways. i really do love u all. =)

hope we all found our meaning of life soon. really really hope so.

too much to say
too little time to write it down
too little time to recall what i wanted to say
is all just feeling
un-thinkable feeling~

if only there is IF.

Life?

sometimes it is so funny~~

i found a nice book!
the rules of life - hmmm

what is life.
what life means to u.
why rules.

台上一分钟，台下十年功.

this is so right for life.
nothing goes easy, even get wrinkles u need time.
life is all about time.
u plant food for a couple of weeks and pluck it in just few minutes
u cook the food for hours and eaten it in just a couple of minutes...
i was wondering why god makes us eat?
why god makes us eat few times a day?
why? why? but if we dont eat why we work for?
we work for food... huh~

life is just about food?
hmm.........

"Time passed by so fast".

perhaps i noe why i have this feeling thou the truth it is.

For me it pass so fast because i have not yet accomplish anything and the time is over, perhaps if i have accomplishment den i wouldnt think that time flies~

blogging again and again oso the same topic about accomplishing nothing, but what else to say in this ages? i shud treasure this freedom :)

hmmm...
i 4get 2 record the time.
anyway my very 1st piece =) hehe

can i have java upload here? is so slow neh!

thematic.

even in sarawak i heard this thematic word hundreds of time, my tour guide say hmm i say look of "zhu ti" u can take picture just depend u see or not. i was like.. haiz! ok. thematiccccc come out la. u r so hard to understand leh.

every time i heard nokia ring tone... i will be waiting the sound elo~
ahahah this mus be too much of elooo
hehehe *nokis ring tone* twice elooo!

fuuny man

wow... if i snap my table.
den u will terkejut!
it like emm i duno wat u call mayb rat hse :P
its full of things a hill of paper books cable
face cream bags boxes... everything u can think of :)
soon i'll clean'em up

ohno i think i need to snap the pic wait*

I acquire quality more than b4, since i meet u, perhaps i learn this from u, or mayb i just wanted to act like u. hehe. but i think i rather say i agree wit what u hav said.

I agree when i agree, I dont when i dont.

ops my sunday is gone.

i learn smth during the trip.
is bamboo a tree or a plant?
mayb for those who remember we have learn during primary skol, tat bamboo is a plant. andi already 4get about that. but why a plant? how u do u noe whether it is a plant or a tree?

u decide it by cutting the stick of it, if its empty inside den it is a plant. why cant our teacher teach is this fact rather than asking us to remember the bamboo is a plant, same for banana tree. it is a plan not banana treee! but banana planttttt!!! ok

pls education change!

I oways get alot of this nonsense thought during holidays becos it is the only time tat u r so damn free to think nonsensely! :)

I hate the fact that I'm 22.

we were talking about ages in sudden conversation and my sis says im 22. i wanted to correct her tat im 21 oni but think again... i already 22. how sad.

I like taking pictures to keep those beautiful memories, only by then memories wouldn't fade. only by then i can remember clearly what happen at that little moment. words cant paint my memories. but at the same time
I hate looking at photographs... those really sweet times capture. I hate it for its already past. I hate it tat i know i cant go back to tat time. I hate it tat it show how fast the time passes. i hate it especially when u looking backward in ur dslr in a fast speed. u see what hav u capture today. u see how hav today slip by. I hate it. but i have to love it. since lost time is never found again.

i really like this the way to wealth by benjamin franklin. it doesnt talk about money but time. this is what i like. if this is discuss in a small talk den tats so great. at least it makes sum1 aware of the passed time. at least they can make sum1 appreciate more the times they have. i read "one more day" by mitch albom. nice 1. it also talks about appreciating times. Lost time is never found again.

back from sarawak yesterday
em when thr for 4 days 3 night. staying at damai beach resort which takes 45 minutes to reach the city (kuching). Kuching comes from Mata Kuching some kind of longan but now already pupus. B4 we go thr we already book the tour guide, upon reaching thr our tour guide is at the airport to pick us. his name mr lee.

He bring us around kuching,
cat museum - all kinds of things related to cat is in thr, den to sarawak museum which show their traditional stuff, and to a tower to view the whole kuching.he also bring us to a pottery shop, and we see how those ppl make pottery. Last wen to visit orang utan but due to fruiting season the orang utan didnt come out and we wen thr sitting in the forest for 1 hour. all this cost us 145.

2nd day we went to visit orang bidayuh which is land dayuh. the lives in hse make of bamboo, their main raw material is bamboo. from my hotel it takes 2 hrs to reach thr. 120rm.

3rd day, since thr is nothing much to do we go visit orang iban which located few hundreds km away. means we have 4 hrs of car and 45 min of long boat to reach the hse of orang iban (long hse) orang iban oso known as sea dayuh, and their main raw material is wood. they r more friendly compare to the bidayuh... and yes nice experience thou. and then go home. actually lots of detail to write but again lazy. hehe haha wait la sum times in the future oni update it :) ohya it cost us 450 for tat. huh expensive eh!

last day sleep 99 in hotel and go city walk walk... and then our tour guide send us to airport and sit 99 wait for the airplane. and back home sleep again what a day. waisted but anyway i read my book the whole day so at least not so wasted la. :)

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i like small talk whr ppl exchange their thought on real thing not those small matters. what i mean real is smth worth talking :) but haven meet this kind of conversation yet, so far just a short 1 i have. come any1 interested to talk? im interested to listen. :)

oways wen read back i have spelling mistake and many errors
i suppose this is my typing is so slow tat all the words come spitting out b4 i can type it all... soree 4 tat =)

Recalling the days during 2nd penang trip.
* didnt mean to recall so many things but these were things i wanted to blog but lazy, since i blogged yesterday and now i kinda addicted. LoLx

em. lot of things happen. jus be4 this penang trip which happen on dec 3 to 6. we wen to malacca on nov 18 if not mistaken ;) perhaps we met to often tat we have notin much to say... on our way thr. but wen goin home which is 12 smth all are so active!!! the kid go play play den i, sean so play wit him. and make noise in the bus, since no complain mai continue la~~ haha until reach oso so noisy, memang gan u! i wont do tat twice haha! think oso feel paiseh!omg

my cash all are negatif!!!
i said i wanted to use all my dec salary bcos is my birthday month and I did and did better which mean i used till i have negatif half my jan salary. i bought 3 book at once which cost me 285!!! and i continue shopping buying a pair of shoe, top and skirt and... no more thou the 3 garments are extremely discount price but plus this plus that ohya the dinner i buy my family which now i owe my mom.
i ended use half of my jan salary which haven out yet! and im goin sarawak in jan too. which mean using lots of $$ and jan ended RM00.00 mayb - too huh~~~
waiting 4 new eheheh to get ang paooo and shoppp with ah sean! XP

ahahah so i wanted 2 record everthg.
lets start it. 2day notin much a normal working day.
ohya. my dad say smth tat keep me shut from complainin.
"he say he had not complain yet".

yup he's right, he work harder than i ever have
he suffer more than i ever had
therefore i have no reason to complain and now 2 stop =)
thou it was late to stop but i still stop =)
thank you dad!

my dad joke with another girl who study in uk
tat i wanted to study thr too
asking her to bring me along.
but terribly paiseh 4 me to let ppl noe tat.
cos i am very ashame of myself, for i have no gud result.

everytime i see my parents working
i feel so sad tat i cant help dem, im so soree for them for i use their money to study in the one and notin yet pay off. i dun wan dem to come to my graduation bcos i have nothing to proud dem with. is only a graduation attire not the inner proud. i will try my best 2 archive good result to make dem proud of their daughter! Im sorry so much my daddy mommy, i'll make u proud. i lurve u dad, mom!

but the problem is i still duno how 2 make it. i recall chacting with sean n bra, both of dem think of their future too, nice talking with ppl who in the same way.sean told me once... all of us will succeed only who reach faster, i agree. bra have a lot of supportive quotation yet tat doesnt help much thou is was meaningful tat some i already noe and already agree.

at this moment i really wanted to find out how 2 study ( not study book but study how 2 read, absorb, inspire and create a new idea)

thanks for everything i already have!
thanks lot!

looking back
2009 have alots of differences for me, my family, politic and even star*
such such a many thing happen
hehe since i see many people counting on the 2009 let me count again
is not to show anythin but jus to recall what had happen =)
emmm start with jan.

In jan i started workin with my parents, i work reluctantly and i feel so sad and i still remember i call sean so often until the mid of yr that i have more focus. I sit in a class that i treasure so much. and still loving tat time yet so sad tat it ended. and oh yes started to teach at the one academy on the last week of jan. I met Hang send my 1st term lecturer who taught me Finish Art and tat term was his last teaching. Yeap! I like to work with him too! Meeting both of the lecturer really changes ME! I love eating with dem both of them! and both of dem belanja me soya bean and at the same time tell me the bad news thou they told in different time.

It was chinese new year during feb, after new yr with my ang pao i wen curling my hair and colour it from aunty teresa, i dun like it tat time cos looks uhh! but now tat it looks more natural yes i like it much. In Feb i still workin in factory n The One and yes i still remember every sat after my class i met my college fren and we have fun till late night, and yet no complain from any1 =) we have 3 house warming in hamtaro hse, 1st time i have the pictures and just the few of use. hamtaro hse serves us great food; char ice cream etc. We all ate and help too but i snaping pic most of the time. 2nd time the pictures gone cos hamtaro thought he save the pic edi but actually didnt. tat time alot of ppl come including alvin n bryan, these 2 r remarkable cos tat time they seldom join us. why? I not sure alvin but bryan was in the National Service. Sometimes wen we remember him we call him during our outing. haha. 1 time they laugh so hard wen i say i dun wan already wen talking to bra tat now i still remember bout it.

I remember tat time i started learning chinese on my own, trying to learn the book of him. and yes tat help me alot too hehehe now i noe a number of word but till march i learn i stopped. beside learning chinese I on9 often, that makes my eye pain, cos i on9 asap wen i awaken and on9 till i sleep. Why? I wan trying to see more, read more, until now i still haven get the solution... Not knowing how to see deeply, yet i haven give up thou smtimes i complain.

March- hardly anything different from feb.

April is my last month of tutoring. im totally so sad to end it.yet so happy to have tat chance. After ending it i work at factory and i think around tat time my friends didnt meet as often.

May- I decided to buy DSLR. and after buying it i wen to china to learn 3d. I suffer lot tat time.therefore dun wanna write bout it.

Jun- still suffering from the 3d thingy.

July- I think my suffering ended. and i started focusing on printing.

Aug-??? im lazy to write consequence lazy to think.

Sept- went to mynmmar with tzu chi. from tat time onward my family getting more active in tzu chi activities. before tat they already started to collect mineral bottles for recycle.

Oct- same

Nov- same too, we still meet often too but not every week, tats why need camera to capture the moment if not 4get what had happen.

Dec- yes is my birthday and just 1 month back. and i have a 21st birthday and my frens came join my dinner and went to penang on birthday weekend. Before this, every time on my birthday i imagine tat my fren would celebrate with me but none come true until my 21st. at the time tat i dun really mind much cos yes people change. i changes my mind. and at the very yr i dun wanted to reach my birthday bcos i felt tat im old and i still haven archive anything... i fear of reaching 21, but no cure tat time cant be stop. To end 2009 i join kityee n her friends picnicing in putrajaya which is kinda cool. every year b4 this i which i celebrate my new year with my friend but not any yr was granted but this, however dun feel like joining cos the same reason with birthday, i ended so fast. i wanted to stay at home lock my self and emo or mayb drown myself on9ing.

At the 2 months active in helping tzu chi printing poster.

The point of making this blog is to kept my dailies and my thought which i have no whr to tell my thought so i blog it here, but tat lasted a few months only. wanted to make it alive again in 2010... recording wat happen in the year or NEW. =)
so ok lets start!!!

yeappi 2010.