ah~ i never like u ling!

putting myself more in tv d...
cos i duno wat to do besides tat.

wanted to tell someone that i have understood smth. but haven.
to tell that is becos of the hope, the wish, the pray that they are all safe :D

duno what should i feel at this moment**

went i thought of finger,
very sad... things happen canot change...
ah. what can i say more?

应为自己也不知道什么是什么。。。
所以也不知道在所什么。。。 =。=
有时候很想哭那当然也哭出来咯不然收来做什么

comedian is those with brilliant mind!

i wake up some morning sit and have my coffee and look out at my beautiful garden and i go, remember how good this is. because u can lose it - jim carrey.

so true so sad.

accident happen and i dun wan to write it out
i dun wan to remember it.

Rich dad, Poor Dad.

i dun like and continue dun like,
what i am on...
cant i do smth else?

L.argh

last friday which is wesak day '10. i went hiking with my cousin and his church members. we have old n young going up the hill to waterfall. tat place grown alot of bamboo and the road is just normal soil road, u need not much energy just some walking and u'll be thr, but of cos we didnt reach the top, until the place we stop is the start of the real mountain climbing. while walking up thr, alot of others malay who going up thr to camp. is such a gud thing to do with friends, is kinda sad, chinese seldom bring their children to outdoor activities. anyway...
went we wanted to go down, the rain start, no point waiting, so we walk in the rain :D
sumthing u wouldnt do normally
like it haha em... ohya im the one driving =="
and we went to hot spring after tat to hot our leg XP and home we go,
after i bring them home, i went shop and bought a belt & dress
like it wuhooo~

Very sad very sad...
cos i did smth wrong, is not the matter of money
is the matter of thrust, between you and me
and the matter of time, i use time to finish it
and u tell me wrong???
i use time to see the things, and u tell me wrong?
i check it is right already and again u tell me wrong???
wth oh deng!!!

wah! i duno why i didnt feel like i work yesterday
yesterday seem have gone from my memory, what i did yesterday?
i remember writing an long email to someone and tats all...

身边很多人都生孩子了。 虽然那些人不是很close，但一听到结婚，生孩子， 就想起 啊，一年又过了， 老的真快。

我不想， 不想长达。。。

Last yr march i bought a book, which have 213 pages and till now i read only until pages 41. how hard is it. swt. ofcos i started to read often this yr, but is still too slow. hard hard hard ==. luckily i didnt wait till i finish it.

"i wash, wash and wash my hand till my finger get rid of all the "lines of the future" ". living today as today.

perhaps i finally noe why i dun make food for others,
cos i dun like seeing them being wasted =)
i really dont like making FOOD la.

Shall I.

but i dont believe it, really tat helpless?

Brain required rest. Knowledge required gain. Idea required think. Wisdom required experience. We will never know what is going to happen, but in our life, try to make something happen.

有时候我真的很矛盾， 做则不想做的工作。自己也懂但无法改变 ：（
有时后， 早上不想起床 想用睡望了一且。但有做不到应为脑子一次又一次提醒自己过了的时间是不会回来的。
但如果不作，我要做设末？不懂 不懂
真无聊。应为本身没有设么计划所以常常问朋友的计划， 听听也好吗。。。对不对


这个做跟这个作有设么分别啊？ +。+
哈哈为设么写汉语？ 因为我喜欢啦。
我会吗？当然不会啦，我agak agak 的拼音加google translate就会了 =）



Veronika decides to die.
If i have a choice, if i had understood earlier that the reason my days were all the same was bcos I wanted like that.。。perhaps

sometimes i repeat what i have written... is all becos i want to remember all the things that had so much memoriessss memoriesss.
ah~ really treasure it much every second of it.
yesterday wen and eat steamboat for hamtaro birthday
is had been years we haven come out and eat 2gether since tis yr is a yr of changessss :) suddenly got annual report feel tim. lol.
the day b4 jiayiin birthday she wanted to eat korean food so we went thr la, but huh not nice loh, the environment n food located at mid valley top floor. and we watch ip man 2 too, wow i didnt watch the 1st one, but wow i like him, =)

while wit jy and ay... i keep asking them their plan, very normal punya ay give me no response... since i think she no need think so much cosss emmmm duno why... but jy got say smth la~~ i noe say edi oso no sound after tat. since we seldom see each other on9. so seldom talk la. but at tat time i suddenly think of sumthing. sumthing stupid but mayb can work... but seem hard too. ushhh gonna think properly den do it. hmmm sien ah.

2day woke up late d... mayb i donno whether to begin den i sleep all time past. hm. nah not time way goonaa wake uppppppp *slap me pls* piakk piakkkk



ah

haha is 16 may
cant stop reminding myself the TIME PASS TOO FAST
n i cant stop reminding jia and ay too
yesterday went out wit dem to celebrate jia 21st ops nono is 22 edi
oh gosh dun wanna dun wanna but u~ +.+
aik. how i oso duno
read weronika decides to die lately
kinda nice book :D

how how how

what to say? my dear, dear~

suddenly i feel like
am i too rush?

wat if im not chinese?

Many people in my family suffer from depression. It's one of the main reasons I decided to become a photographer. I wanted to create colorful, positive, feel good images. - Color me Katie.

again laptop got problem
and of cos the link of sites i haven finish all GONE =.='
hulala~~~ wan sleep ddddd
sleeep em... wat else?
oh yes today i wen to trial class em kinda new thing lol

of cos new la since i never really try b4
actually last time oso got go b4 but no real 1
just normal normal 1 hmm kinda feel like walao those pose so
fuunny :D but em.. still very funny

曾经

ahahah so deng!
again i said smth wrong to customer
is not tat smth not gud but is still not a correct solution
so damn deng lol~
have to learn more 1st.huhlala

hope is ok everything... :)
pray tat i can stand on my own feet
do not look at others garden, plant your own flowers :)

Keep the Ability to Be Surprised.

hm... hundreds of.. nop thousand of times i type wrongly and write wrongly in a way of write terlebih or terkurang words... perhaps is my writting too slow or shall i say my writing n thinking dun wat to write d... wanna sleep 1st...

is all the memories that looks delicious
after graduate from sri kl
my ex-classmates n myself will sumtime remember of the nsai lemak we ate in school
but we one day i went to eat it
it was yuk! i suppose sumtime sumthings is better kept as a memory
a beautiful ones...

:D
second day of my impossible to i'mpossible :)))

great

想太多了
想的美

哈哈just trying :)
april 18
owh is already april 18
live preciously

today i read a special edition mag
for water
is truly worrying
water is so sacred and precious
not a drop of water shall be waste.
:'(

save the water
i shall do my part

before this i dont really did b4 any - just do it and imppossible is nothing
but after a yr (now) i do believe it
cos is proven but of cos i haven did anything much for just do it.
still need some courage :)

but i love immpossible is nothin. i doing it now :)
tomoro gonna start another immpossible :)
cheers~~
wuhoo
gonna make it all muackk
same to u all my dear angels

JUST DO IT!

yesterday went out to petaling st,
meet a bunch of ppl one of them i knew in icia...
and another new guy very friendly & helpful :)
thou i think he is the youngest among but he really generous
much much generous than others
great meeting XD

wake up feeling emo today duno why.
althou i shud be happy cos i m goin out later

oh yes kinda like the book design is attitude
like kohei suguira.:)

haha is friday again
time really past so fast
i oways wait for weekend, suppose i hate monday
but now i dun have the feeling already, duno why.
mayb i have accepted the fact of working??
hmm... another yr past already 20++ few more yrs 30++ arghh
dun wan i dun wan. very weird morning morning wake up do nothin but blog ==\

i wonder how i gonna make it when im in overseas :)
since all the geng ppl oso so emo staying thr lol
anyway just thinking only~~

all the memories kept in pictures.
pk. u noe u have all our memor laa
give us back some leh.

To see a world in a grain of sand, and a heaven in a wildflower... hold infinity in the palm of your hand, and eternity in an hou

arghhh heels!!!
still haven get after so longgggg :((

aiz. few nights no on9 due to internet connection
i went to bro with sum1 and another sum1 dun like.
complicated stuff.

:))))))))))
hot hot hot. is so hot
and again earth quake.
huh

ahhhhh
i check with amazon the price for the book i bought
i was much more cheapperrr
ah~deng
i saw a book i buy in amazon it was roughly the sameeee
omg anyway i already paid.
noting much to say...

guess what since my lap kena stole
i change all the password of blog etc etc
and just now i was just trying to open another blog acc
when it keep saying WRONG PASSWORD.
ish! how can.

and i hate ppl ussing my lap...
the close ur thing without asking
or helping u to click save as ...
and all my link lost in just 1 click :(

i bought 3 book yesterday and cost me >.<
awhh i was so jam so i thought goin to kino and have a look
compare the price hehehe
but at last i just bought it without comparing
since i noe i wouldnt go back kino just to buy A BOOK.
anyway buy already

1. GD theory by helen armstrong
2. The GD excecise
3. Design is attitude

And they are having promo now

Celebrating 9 years
To celebrate Kinokuniya Book Stores Malaysia's 9th anniversary
*Enjoy a RM30 rebate on the next single purchase (of books only), with the completion of 9 stamps. 1 stamps cost rm 30.

hmm
alot of words of john maeda
definitely go in to me
but i still wondering if it was the right path i want to go on?
do i?
everyday i ask myself
everyday i was fighting to my own path
but... hm.

because of the unknown,
fear is not there.
i was desperately looking for a chinese book
and due to all the site in chinese no fear of virus etc
just click and try
and i did found what i wanted
and wich to find some english 1, but seem impossible
since those site looks more virus containing more.

yesterday night i wanted to blog sumthing up tis morn,
but 4get what it is jor. swt ==

haha is smth gud
soree but i have to blog this
so i remember this moment =)

my dear fren hamtaro wanted to msn with yyy
how can i believe
but is true =)
gud that u make the 1st step

walaaooo
mayb i noe why i am so happy
cos i bought a super light plastic but
but seem useful
ahahahhaha wuhooo~~
thks!

thou is quite exp but =)

愉悦 correct?anyway =)

=)
=)
=)
=)

i an so happy today.
for no reason.
perhaps i see the something gud.

oh yes today watch clash of the titans.
izit clash??
4gotten =)

yes it is april already
things is different now
glad it happen =)

xiao hai zi jia you oh!
everyone is on their pathnow
that is so great =)
we shud celebrate it.

2009 is a year whr enjoyment is all around except have to work
lots of thing happen the very good thing and the very bad things

but now 2010
kid is working outside which means 2moro last day
bra 2day last pula and goin out to study
kit yy and phi go bristol
pk go singapore
and who else????
me stay kl workkkk =)

hmm wondering what will be during 2011 =)))))
gud luck everyone

have pressure?
oh come on
i duno what is stress what is pressure
cos i haven have anot REAL stress and pressure
since i dun have any burden just yet.
i dun like when i heard ppl around me say that they have stress
cos hey! what stress have u got?

u shud go home and ask ur dad or u mom
bout stress, they are the one who have to work,
have to take care the family
bave to take care of u
have to take care of the MONEYYYY
and everything ELSE.

so be happy that u are stress-less. :)

Do I have plan? Bah! Of Cos i have.
But it seem to be too ridiculous to be told.
let me be on the path den i'll definitely told u the 1st one :)
wait for me.

I love you like I yesterday did.

Truly~

ahahahah 2:25pm
come comeee 计划？

aiyer... i feel the distance :(
how how??? of cos not distance from fren la... but some1
-.- sad sad sad thing.
ei hot leh sunday afternoon

hope what i wanted will ON.
and not too late to ON.

aiyer yerrr i super () u leh
dun leave me, believe me k.

heart.

wow
i cant believe im back from taiwan
time.
hmm like my trip to tw :)

just do it.
ahaha to day i going to meet some1 :)
which i wanted to meet years b4 yet didnt do it

oh yes... the world is so sick,
things has to be done.

hope i have the courage to do what i wanted to do :)

感恩哦

design field?
will i still in this field in 2 yrs time?

hahahaa im goin 2 taiwan next week
ngek ngek ngek
thou not for fun
but i still steppin my foot thr
lovin it. soon after i have chance will go FOR FUN~~
wuhooo
ei sean how bout we meet in taiwan?
sinnce ahahah gud ma~ :D

how how how?
every1 is going off. me?
left me over here :(
how sad.

den i shall shop more to cure ahahha
come shop shop!!!

Hmm! How can my laptop can be stolen?
i just cant believe it. anyway tat person was not lucky then
cos just rite on that day my lap having problem to ON :)
while i waiting 4 the computer man, the ppl stole it.
HA.

so havent been on9 for a week d.
sien
on9 oso notin to do~~
anyway now got temporary laptop to use.

aiz. feeling is so confusing.
i hate this.

why human needs to eat?

guess what
after weeks of moving to new house
i suddenly remember i have yet to find my precious stuff.
whr the shit i keep it? now that i have search all the things but still not around.
perhaps i have send it all to recycle. oh my...
to recycle. what can i say. huh :(

suddenly i understand the need of touch.
i will buy it if i feel good touching it :)

number 23.

what u think. :)

which phone to get??
ahaha can u let me touch u b4 deciding??
eiyerr come la~
let me touch :)

bahaha.
i am very clear talking bout this.
perhaps go overseas for a holiday was not a bad idea,
taking the time for study to enjoy awhile... but
what to do after that? continue to struggle with the work i doesnt like?
i dont wan to go in a uni i doesnt like for the sake of goin in.

am i putting myself too high? :)
hehehe miss those font use to see in email hah!
gud day my frend.

every post talk about searching about life.damn.

oooh DENG
不知不觉 is a;ready 18 of feb
whr portfolio suppose to send out in march
how am i goin 2 send???
when thr is notin to send???

i duno wat to do leh...
oh sien.
how? who am i suppose to ask how.
any answer available?

another year pass.
hmm... only when u noe what u read thats true reading
alot of times i read and read and read yet i 4get what i have read,
perhaps im so worst in understanding.
i need time to digest what i have read and learn
alot of time.

hm. dun like it. since is waste of time

reunion nite.
last year reunion nite was still so fresh in my mind,
i still remember talking with my cousin about our thought for ourself or better say mission of that year, and we reunion again this year yet nothing have change much.
he recall that i told him i want to go out more with my friends. i have totally forgotten i have told him this but yet it happened. :)

and yes sometimes is so wierd. sumthing happen on that particular time and stop where it is.

still fresh remembering meeting L. and still fresh about the times talking with him but in just a sudden lost contact. how sad. huh. yet life have to go on.

Searching for life is interesting.
hahaha nonsense
thanks god for everything i already have.

TQ so much what u have gaven me.
TQQQ

went can my fear be overcome
i oways understand fearing can help
and no use sitting here and fear but i still fear...
i definitely agree with sean alot of things depend on fate
and of cos depend on ourself whether we wan to sit here and fear or just do it.
but life is never so easy.

nonsense.

ahahah sean sean ~~~

i like so much we talk.
of everything ahahaha lurve it. :)
i still remember got 1 time we talk so often, the time i was so blur,
:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
seannn wen u r back rememeber find me talk rrrrrrrrrr
i m really so waiting the time, we meet in sumwhr.

* wish me must happen *

MUSTTT oh yes will definitely happen

Human are so fake.

i hate passed time for time passed is never found again, i hate present time for i have not found the meaning of life, i hate the future for i have no idea what the future will be, yet life have to go on. Cheers~ :)

hahaha yesterday was sean farewell
kinda hmm sad thing seeing my dear all goin off 1 by 1
and soon left no 1 here in KL.hmm~~
but we have 10 ppl gathering ahaha long time no this big gather jor
NICE!

ISSAC.
U REALLY OUT OF MY EXPECTATION!

i never noe u read and can conclude so well loh,
u r really so OMG.
tats gud haha great continue talking ya
dun emo so much on those *stuff* la

summore u talk those thing about dream job was so true.
can u write it down i 4get easily loh.
I read lot to, but no conclusion and i again 4get easily so
no use reading it loh, aiz.
OMG deng! what to say???

aiz... just realize
that we meet so often after we went to penang in dec08
and we seldom/ hardly find the time to meet after we went to penang in dec 09
what a sad thing
is kind of wasted... but at least happen =)
so still ok la~~~ hehehe
lurve u all so much.

but hey think back.
we went out so much/often till i can imagine loh
like it.
kiss u all =)

wow tis blog i found is really speaking what i wanted to say yet not said. =)

credited to Jacq.

What is 'meaning in life' to u?
Life is something we all have in common no matter who we are, where we are, how rich, how poor, what we do for a living, race, religion, culture... etc. What sets us apart is how we chose to live it (if we have the priviledge to choose), or rather how life itself unfolds in the palm of our hands...

Some live their whole lives trying to find a meaning but never can find.
You work hard, plan for the future, find stability. That is very very important. Survival. As you grow older, you find that u are bearing more responsibilities which comes with family, children, workplace and everything that circulates around your life. Everything demands more of u. U can't run away from that. No one can run away from responsibilities.

Everyone in a way, is searching for a meaning in life.
The purpose.
The reason we go about doing what we do everyday.... The hours stuck in the STUPID STUPID STUPID traffic, working your ass off, studying for exams squeezing every ounce of 'smart-ness' left in your brain so that u can ace a test.... why do we do all these stuff??
A good answer would be.... "I want to be successful." or "Life is short and I want to make the best of it."

It is very good to be ambitious and wanting to improve yourself and live a successful life but dont mistaken being successful or contented with knowledge and finances to 'having a meaningful life'.

>> hmm i was still trying to figure out what i wan in life.

I've been a very confused person(hehe :P) when it comes to choosing a path in life that I would eventually take. You cannot keep going one way and look the other, "oh! that way looks better..." and turn around and try the other. That way, u'll never get anywhere. Always stuck at the crossroads. Back at the beginning. I'm still working on it btw... ;)

What is meaning in life to u?


Sometimes we just think too much.
Sometimes we care too much what others think about what we do.
Just put that all aside and listen to what that person inside you is saying.
That little voice we push aside. Insensible. Ridiculous. That voice that believes in love and in dreams, and that sparks ideas to do crazy things!
That voice that gives us heaps and mountains of strength when we actually decide to listen to it.
The world may be so deceiving it's so hard to tell the truth from lies.
Take some time to listen to ur heart.
Just listen. Mix it with some sense, integrity and lots of care and compassion. There u have it!

Because...... the most constant thing in life is... CHANGE.

You need to open your mind and see the greater possibilities that the world has to offer. It's not easy to be like a nomad when it comes to your own mind but you just wouldn't know the treasures that are in store for you on the other side if you don't step out. We always tend to stick to what we know and believe in because it is in that we find comfort and trust. Don't let your fear of the unknown tie you down and keep you from soaring. It's ok to give it a shot and get yourself hurt rather than spend your life wondering how it would have felt.
Be spontaneous.
you're young and you still can.
This is what life is about.

But be strong and be ready to pick yourself up when you fall. Because you will.
Mourn for a while but don't fuss, and keep moving forward.

what we go through might be totally different but it is all similar in a way.
sometimes we just need a little encouragement.


>> is all what i have been thinking all this while,what is the meaning of life?
i was still wandering. Hope i can find out soon the answer. ;)
oh ya... read book in the while, like mitch albom- another one more day. u noe how precious, how fragile is life. yet sometimes is hard to show the love u have for dem. for the people besides u. anyways. i really do love u all. =)

hope we all found our meaning of life soon. really really hope so.

too much to say
too little time to write it down
too little time to recall what i wanted to say
is all just feeling
un-thinkable feeling~

if only there is IF.

Life?

sometimes it is so funny~~

i found a nice book!
the rules of life - hmmm

what is life.
what life means to u.
why rules.

台上一分钟，台下十年功.

this is so right for life.
nothing goes easy, even get wrinkles u need time.
life is all about time.
u plant food for a couple of weeks and pluck it in just few minutes
u cook the food for hours and eaten it in just a couple of minutes...
i was wondering why god makes us eat?
why god makes us eat few times a day?
why? why? but if we dont eat why we work for?
we work for food... huh~

life is just about food?
hmm.........

"Time passed by so fast".

perhaps i noe why i have this feeling thou the truth it is.

For me it pass so fast because i have not yet accomplish anything and the time is over, perhaps if i have accomplishment den i wouldnt think that time flies~

blogging again and again oso the same topic about accomplishing nothing, but what else to say in this ages? i shud treasure this freedom :)

hmmm...
i 4get 2 record the time.
anyway my very 1st piece =) hehe

can i have java upload here? is so slow neh!

thematic.

even in sarawak i heard this thematic word hundreds of time, my tour guide say hmm i say look of "zhu ti" u can take picture just depend u see or not. i was like.. haiz! ok. thematiccccc come out la. u r so hard to understand leh.

every time i heard nokia ring tone... i will be waiting the sound elo~
ahahah this mus be too much of elooo
hehehe *nokis ring tone* twice elooo!

fuuny man

wow... if i snap my table.
den u will terkejut!
it like emm i duno wat u call mayb rat hse :P
its full of things a hill of paper books cable
face cream bags boxes... everything u can think of :)
soon i'll clean'em up

ohno i think i need to snap the pic wait*

I acquire quality more than b4, since i meet u, perhaps i learn this from u, or mayb i just wanted to act like u. hehe. but i think i rather say i agree wit what u hav said.

I agree when i agree, I dont when i dont.

ops my sunday is gone.

i learn smth during the trip.
is bamboo a tree or a plant?
mayb for those who remember we have learn during primary skol, tat bamboo is a plant. andi already 4get about that. but why a plant? how u do u noe whether it is a plant or a tree?

u decide it by cutting the stick of it, if its empty inside den it is a plant. why cant our teacher teach is this fact rather than asking us to remember the bamboo is a plant, same for banana tree. it is a plan not banana treee! but banana planttttt!!! ok

pls education change!

I oways get alot of this nonsense thought during holidays becos it is the only time tat u r so damn free to think nonsensely! :)

I hate the fact that I'm 22.

we were talking about ages in sudden conversation and my sis says im 22. i wanted to correct her tat im 21 oni but think again... i already 22. how sad.

I like taking pictures to keep those beautiful memories, only by then memories wouldn't fade. only by then i can remember clearly what happen at that little moment. words cant paint my memories. but at the same time
I hate looking at photographs... those really sweet times capture. I hate it for its already past. I hate it tat i know i cant go back to tat time. I hate it tat it show how fast the time passes. i hate it especially when u looking backward in ur dslr in a fast speed. u see what hav u capture today. u see how hav today slip by. I hate it. but i have to love it. since lost time is never found again.

i really like this the way to wealth by benjamin franklin. it doesnt talk about money but time. this is what i like. if this is discuss in a small talk den tats so great. at least it makes sum1 aware of the passed time. at least they can make sum1 appreciate more the times they have. i read "one more day" by mitch albom. nice 1. it also talks about appreciating times. Lost time is never found again.

back from sarawak yesterday
em when thr for 4 days 3 night. staying at damai beach resort which takes 45 minutes to reach the city (kuching). Kuching comes from Mata Kuching some kind of longan but now already pupus. B4 we go thr we already book the tour guide, upon reaching thr our tour guide is at the airport to pick us. his name mr lee.

He bring us around kuching,
cat museum - all kinds of things related to cat is in thr, den to sarawak museum which show their traditional stuff, and to a tower to view the whole kuching.he also bring us to a pottery shop, and we see how those ppl make pottery. Last wen to visit orang utan but due to fruiting season the orang utan didnt come out and we wen thr sitting in the forest for 1 hour. all this cost us 145.

2nd day we went to visit orang bidayuh which is land dayuh. the lives in hse make of bamboo, their main raw material is bamboo. from my hotel it takes 2 hrs to reach thr. 120rm.

3rd day, since thr is nothing much to do we go visit orang iban which located few hundreds km away. means we have 4 hrs of car and 45 min of long boat to reach the hse of orang iban (long hse) orang iban oso known as sea dayuh, and their main raw material is wood. they r more friendly compare to the bidayuh... and yes nice experience thou. and then go home. actually lots of detail to write but again lazy. hehe haha wait la sum times in the future oni update it :) ohya it cost us 450 for tat. huh expensive eh!

last day sleep 99 in hotel and go city walk walk... and then our tour guide send us to airport and sit 99 wait for the airplane. and back home sleep again what a day. waisted but anyway i read my book the whole day so at least not so wasted la. :)

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i like small talk whr ppl exchange their thought on real thing not those small matters. what i mean real is smth worth talking :) but haven meet this kind of conversation yet, so far just a short 1 i have. come any1 interested to talk? im interested to listen. :)

oways wen read back i have spelling mistake and many errors
i suppose this is my typing is so slow tat all the words come spitting out b4 i can type it all... soree 4 tat =)

Recalling the days during 2nd penang trip.
* didnt mean to recall so many things but these were things i wanted to blog but lazy, since i blogged yesterday and now i kinda addicted. LoLx

em. lot of things happen. jus be4 this penang trip which happen on dec 3 to 6. we wen to malacca on nov 18 if not mistaken ;) perhaps we met to often tat we have notin much to say... on our way thr. but wen goin home which is 12 smth all are so active!!! the kid go play play den i, sean so play wit him. and make noise in the bus, since no complain mai continue la~~ haha until reach oso so noisy, memang gan u! i wont do tat twice haha! think oso feel paiseh!omg

my cash all are negatif!!!
i said i wanted to use all my dec salary bcos is my birthday month and I did and did better which mean i used till i have negatif half my jan salary. i bought 3 book at once which cost me 285!!! and i continue shopping buying a pair of shoe, top and skirt and... no more thou the 3 garments are extremely discount price but plus this plus that ohya the dinner i buy my family which now i owe my mom.
i ended use half of my jan salary which haven out yet! and im goin sarawak in jan too. which mean using lots of $$ and jan ended RM00.00 mayb - too huh~~~
waiting 4 new eheheh to get ang paooo and shoppp with ah sean! XP

ahahah so i wanted 2 record everthg.
lets start it. 2day notin much a normal working day.
ohya. my dad say smth tat keep me shut from complainin.
"he say he had not complain yet".

yup he's right, he work harder than i ever have
he suffer more than i ever had
therefore i have no reason to complain and now 2 stop =)
thou it was late to stop but i still stop =)
thank you dad!

my dad joke with another girl who study in uk
tat i wanted to study thr too
asking her to bring me along.
but terribly paiseh 4 me to let ppl noe tat.
cos i am very ashame of myself, for i have no gud result.

everytime i see my parents working
i feel so sad tat i cant help dem, im so soree for them for i use their money to study in the one and notin yet pay off. i dun wan dem to come to my graduation bcos i have nothing to proud dem with. is only a graduation attire not the inner proud. i will try my best 2 archive good result to make dem proud of their daughter! Im sorry so much my daddy mommy, i'll make u proud. i lurve u dad, mom!

but the problem is i still duno how 2 make it. i recall chacting with sean n bra, both of dem think of their future too, nice talking with ppl who in the same way.sean told me once... all of us will succeed only who reach faster, i agree. bra have a lot of supportive quotation yet tat doesnt help much thou is was meaningful tat some i already noe and already agree.

at this moment i really wanted to find out how 2 study ( not study book but study how 2 read, absorb, inspire and create a new idea)

thanks for everything i already have!
thanks lot!

looking back
2009 have alots of differences for me, my family, politic and even star*
such such a many thing happen
hehe since i see many people counting on the 2009 let me count again
is not to show anythin but jus to recall what had happen =)
emmm start with jan.

In jan i started workin with my parents, i work reluctantly and i feel so sad and i still remember i call sean so often until the mid of yr that i have more focus. I sit in a class that i treasure so much. and still loving tat time yet so sad tat it ended. and oh yes started to teach at the one academy on the last week of jan. I met Hang send my 1st term lecturer who taught me Finish Art and tat term was his last teaching. Yeap! I like to work with him too! Meeting both of the lecturer really changes ME! I love eating with dem both of them! and both of dem belanja me soya bean and at the same time tell me the bad news thou they told in different time.

It was chinese new year during feb, after new yr with my ang pao i wen curling my hair and colour it from aunty teresa, i dun like it tat time cos looks uhh! but now tat it looks more natural yes i like it much. In Feb i still workin in factory n The One and yes i still remember every sat after my class i met my college fren and we have fun till late night, and yet no complain from any1 =) we have 3 house warming in hamtaro hse, 1st time i have the pictures and just the few of use. hamtaro hse serves us great food; char ice cream etc. We all ate and help too but i snaping pic most of the time. 2nd time the pictures gone cos hamtaro thought he save the pic edi but actually didnt. tat time alot of ppl come including alvin n bryan, these 2 r remarkable cos tat time they seldom join us. why? I not sure alvin but bryan was in the National Service. Sometimes wen we remember him we call him during our outing. haha. 1 time they laugh so hard wen i say i dun wan already wen talking to bra tat now i still remember bout it.

I remember tat time i started learning chinese on my own, trying to learn the book of him. and yes tat help me alot too hehehe now i noe a number of word but till march i learn i stopped. beside learning chinese I on9 often, that makes my eye pain, cos i on9 asap wen i awaken and on9 till i sleep. Why? I wan trying to see more, read more, until now i still haven get the solution... Not knowing how to see deeply, yet i haven give up thou smtimes i complain.

March- hardly anything different from feb.

April is my last month of tutoring. im totally so sad to end it.yet so happy to have tat chance. After ending it i work at factory and i think around tat time my friends didnt meet as often.

May- I decided to buy DSLR. and after buying it i wen to china to learn 3d. I suffer lot tat time.therefore dun wanna write bout it.

Jun- still suffering from the 3d thingy.

July- I think my suffering ended. and i started focusing on printing.

Aug-??? im lazy to write consequence lazy to think.

Sept- went to mynmmar with tzu chi. from tat time onward my family getting more active in tzu chi activities. before tat they already started to collect mineral bottles for recycle.

Oct- same

Nov- same too, we still meet often too but not every week, tats why need camera to capture the moment if not 4get what had happen.

Dec- yes is my birthday and just 1 month back. and i have a 21st birthday and my frens came join my dinner and went to penang on birthday weekend. Before this, every time on my birthday i imagine tat my fren would celebrate with me but none come true until my 21st. at the time tat i dun really mind much cos yes people change. i changes my mind. and at the very yr i dun wanted to reach my birthday bcos i felt tat im old and i still haven archive anything... i fear of reaching 21, but no cure tat time cant be stop. To end 2009 i join kityee n her friends picnicing in putrajaya which is kinda cool. every year b4 this i which i celebrate my new year with my friend but not any yr was granted but this, however dun feel like joining cos the same reason with birthday, i ended so fast. i wanted to stay at home lock my self and emo or mayb drown myself on9ing.

At the 2 months active in helping tzu chi printing poster.

The point of making this blog is to kept my dailies and my thought which i have no whr to tell my thought so i blog it here, but tat lasted a few months only. wanted to make it alive again in 2010... recording wat happen in the year or NEW. =)
so ok lets start!!!

yeappi 2010.

as times go taste, feeling, etc...
changes.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you an be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face your world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

Dream.
Yesterday i dream about being a DJ
and i ended up badly
The night before i dream about being a tutor
and ended up badly too...
and i saw disappoint face from L.
wth does all this means. DENG!
phew~ swt~ evry bits of feeling in a feeling.